Search Of Meaning

CHAPTER 3 I don't know where to start... It's sad that our paths have gone separate ways. I can only say thank you for the memories. My pride won't let me reach out to you and to be honest I wouldn't know for what I would be fighting for. But... Thank you for showing me I can care for someone again. Before I met you the world had no colour, the food had no taste and sometimes I would need to check my pulse to be sure I was still alive. With you, for moments I found peace, I could smile and found the ability to laugh, I could tell jokes and understand them again, all of the sudden the world was not grey. You were being the best part of my day without you knowing. I counted the hours to have you in my arms. When I wouldn't see you I would feel home sick. It's scary how someone can just appear in your life and become a priority just because of their smile, laugh, eyes or essence. All of the sudden everything that you know doesn't matter, all you n...

CHAPTER 2 Forgive Start from yourself, understand how messed up you are. Learn why you act like you do. Which memories do you have from your childhood and teenage years that have been stuck in your mind. If you remember them it is probably because they have scarred you some way or the other. Like It or not, the environment that we are raised in has a bigger impact than you might think. “Monkey see, Monkey do.” Once you get to know yourself and understand your imperfections you will be more willing to forgive someone that has broken you. People are victims of their environment, it requires a lot of strength and open mindedness to amend and create a better version of yourself. When someone has been acting the same way for 20 years their values become a part of their being, they have issues themselves don’t expect them to change. Change will always be scary. People are messed up, but so are you.  In a generation that everything is so easy, so many options and everyt...

CHAPTER 1  LOSS In life you will meet amazing people, some will fascinate you but unfortunately some of them will only be for a determined period of time.  People will disappoint you but, is it your fault? For you to be disappointed, you had to have expectations at some point. Did they really elude you, or did you create in your mind a persona that didn’t exist? It can be your fault…you can be in a stage of your life that someone isn’t. People have different journeys, want different things, that's why it is essential to be honest to save anyone from a loss. A loss can be ruthless, it can change someone forever, the realisation that you have no control of your life is a lesson that can haunt you. You let someone in, invested your greatest gift (time),you cared for that person, trusted, made plans and shared secrets. All of a sudden everything crumbles and you come to the realisation how fragile you have become for someone.  This person that you cared f...

INTRO English is not my first language so don't expect the wording of this blog to be book material. I'm not a writer or someone that is a genius. I don't know everything. I'm humble enough to recognise that. I'm just a man that is passionate and driven, in love for life and even accept the ups and downs of it. I'm not special in any sense of the word and I'm not seeking  admiration or fame. This is not my passion, writing it's something that I like and helps me organise my thoughts and ideas, it gives me guidance and reminds of what I want to follow. This is a bit of my journey, my diary. I decided to share it and be vulnerable. Here I will write about different things, there are no rules. If you just want to read about a certain niche I advise you not to continue reading anything else. I'm not that structured. I hope you can achieve something by reading whatever I post and in the end that you can relate with my search/journey. Be aware th...